I *believe* I'm not sure, I believe. I can't answer everything, I believe. Why so much? It's typically already one of the questions I was talking about ! But I know one thing: it's a gift. As CS Lewis' famous trip to the zoo explains: "When we set out, I did not believe Jesus is the Son of God. And when we reached the zoo, I did." It's a gift and our God is generous. So ask. And you'll believe.